secret santa?

im in love with both rings, and the cuff. OH which to chooooose.

HAPPPPY HANUKKAHHH! so im not jewish, but i am. hahah no im really not, but summers spent at 12775, i am. upsetting that those days are over :/ welll i think i may have found the future song of summer 2010? yeee, well its called up up and away by kid cudi, sad to say im obsessed. hahaha ALTHOUGH, i still have that ghettto version of macarana stuck in my head from about two weeks ago when i did that sick zumba dance class at tts. WORKKKOUTTT, hahahh oh the gymmm<3 well its christmas time in the city and sadly friend and neighbor owes me mad moneys lol sorry. and im trying so hard not to by myself this gorgeous house of harlow ring, but i have gifts to give :D i really do just wish it was summer though, really junior year might just be the death of me. as pammy says, THATS SUCH A BAD ATTITUDE. rahhrahhh whatevs. hahhaah MOVINGGGONNN, so theres a new creeeeper in town? coool.... well that hb msg from quite some time ago should be announced in a few weeks... lol. obviouuuuuus! supposedly kathy griffin is coming back! so excited. it makes such good daytime tv, dont you think?
AHHH U.S. TEST TOMORRROW, going to puke. i neeed at least a 90 to feel smart again hahah esp. considering i had a screaming outbreak hysterically crying over how im convinced im mentally retarded. not c000l. today was a good day. every day of winter should be like the weather was today. thanks god. :D
xo,xoBAHHHLOCK IS-LAND.

its gross, how attached i am.

so evidently enough on tuesday afternoon an amazing friend and i went into att and asked, basically demanded, for a new blackberry pour moi. you see the original curve, after about 6 times of getting a new one through insurance, just got old. sounds obnoxious i know, but i cant help it! so anyway, karma is a bitch and tuesday night at the ever so amazing loehmann's sale in NYC with besstie kristina, the little bear-berry was stolen!! ofcourse i had a slight heart attack running around the store like a mother lost her child. sad isnt it? so now being friday i have gone three days with out a phone and as many times as i go to reach for it in my pocket or bag i am finally getting a replacement. if anyone recalls one of my firsts posts i was debating about getting the iphone but the choice is final! today today today!! LUCKILY enough i have first and second period off and then art so annoyingly though the apple store opens at ten with class starting at ten fifteen. im determined, ill just go sit through another art class in my free time if necessary. hahah WELL IM EXCITED, look at it! isnt it gorgeous?! i think so. oh especially with the lucky brand case for winter and hello kitty case for summer. its all g0o0ood h3R3 !n Ph!L3d3LpH!@
xoxoBL

wishing it was just a dreamm..

rest in peace incredible aunt mary

most of the time in my life when something that saddens most or the people i love are upset i have stayed strong and hid my inner feelings but recently when my great aunt mary past away in her sleep at the age of 89 i couldnt help myself but to run to my room and burst into tears. it was so hard not to sob along with my family and hardest of all my mother. my grandma was never really around when my mom was a child and my aunt mary was like her second mother, raised her practically. therefore, my mom being over-ly emotional in general, was hysterical for almost a month. it hadnt hit me that she was gone until this month, after it almost being five months, im not sure what to feel. im the only one that hasnt been in, better yet seen my aunts house since her death and the mention of it and the sight of her belongings in my home gives me the hardest feeling i have ever experienced, unfortunately this happens almost everywhere i look in my house now. weirdly enough as this is all happening i had a dream about a week ago where basically i had gone to her house, with one person, without my parents knowing and went into a state of mind i didnt even know existed. thinking i was crying in my sleep, i know that when the time comes when my mom and her sister go to sell her house i will need to go inside. the strength it will take inside of me though, i just dont know.

last time i checked this wasnt china town..

UMMM BYTHEWAY, so yesterday i got some new bling a la tiffany&co but this gorg. ring has begun to turn my finger green! last time i checkeddddd, real sterling never did such a thing... ill have to get this fixxed cause its making me nervous!! heres a picture of the cutie for ya'll to seee :)
xoxoBL

you know it takes my breathe awayyy...

the beach in the winter, dancing in the rain, kisses during fights
it always wins..
honestly i just may be one of the very few that arent very fond of their birthday, christmas, or thanksgiving but this baby school vacation couldnt come any sooner. in the past the messier my room, the better my life was going. ( other than my parents nagging) but this year all has come down and the floor is visable. basically LIFE OFFICIALLY SUCKS while trying to memorize numerous cases for USH class, which is nothing compared to the torturous readings and other assignments in ap, memorizing this "OH SO AMAZING" french poem CHANSON D'AUTOMNE (what a fav. right?!) totally kiddinggg... basically while life is slowly coming to an end, pamela is having a cow because grandmother is coming to town. For the first time since i can remember she will be at the table for thanksgiving, SHOCKER! not that any of you care, but anywhooooo-
pooor PMW is having such a hard weeeekiez and its only monday :( although all this shinannz starded friday.. it will get better. MISS.BLOCKISLAND over there in ghtetotoo ville made me want to take the car and drive to block island finally to visualize all of the amazing parties and smiliing faces i hear about every time pamela sees the peachy colored block island tank.
well neeeded much to rant, thanks young world.
xoxoBL

arch my eyebrows high

chongaliciousssss

today i talked to sirAP, hes not gettttting anything outtta this 516.
oh dear kitty, zoe, you really need to move off of this bed soon. its not like my room screams north shore animal league GAWSHHHHHhopethatsnotharsh. <3


OH I NEVER THOUGHT ID SAY THIS ... i misss being a tan man :(
i believe ill be arriving back at my new summer home in about a month, but it wont be the same. this past summer was just to amazing. room 301? funniestpossibleroom.
let me just tell you, i even learned how to spell cat.
-C. A. T. (incase you were wondering)

well goodnight for now
xoxoBL

its not our fault we're so popular

we should have our own t.v. show...

OH SIR.PRECIOUS ...
mm holllla coach mac, so weird tennis 09 is over. the fact that the year 09 is ending and I wont be able to say "09" at the end of every sentence. OH BOOO
so here are my shoes...
report cards cant come out soon, or ill die. because the day they do my life ends.... :(
NEWMOONPREMIER .2DAYS? pamela better let me go.. :D

WHY YES BARBARA, I DO..

xoxoBL---or should i say xoxomayohater. ?

well maybe its not just a rugby!

sorrryy biaaaa, enjoy your coffeee miss.

it had to be twinnnn day because almost at least every period i saw some girl wearing this shirt today,, good thing first thing i do when i had off second period was go home and change into this shirt. COOLBEANZ!
ohh well, i love it :)
although the tennis season has been over for almost a month now our ever so amazing team is having a dinnadinna tonight! obviously exciteddddddd. hahah sorry bestfriendkristina for her INSANELY awkward situation today. ooooph!
im tempted to go to the gym, but ofcourse this dinner starting at 6:30/7 only permitting an hour at the gym making time with shower&fancy preperation tight. OHWELLLL, pamela doesnt want me to go to the gym even though she said it was FINE that just means that its not.
OH LOOKY HERE... another email from a website that i have never heard of, but had to sometime in my life because im subscribed and cannot figure out how to make the daily "cutesy girl" emails go away. even though i know cutesy girl imperticular was from that time i attempted to buy kristina sunglasses just so the rants would stop. WELL she didnt get sunglasses, i just get emails. fabulous, isnt it?! :D
xoxoBL

quick switch

hope you all like the new changes! i feel the black comes with the change into winter :D
xoxBL

obsessions come and go..

when did you get so funny?!

hahahah
OH HELLOO THERE, well miss AVG my love has requested to keep blogging, especially because she is most likely the only person who reads this bear blog. xoxo
well i have some new obsessions, and once i find one i seem to never be able to let go, dont worry now - its not a vanilla cup cake, its the ever so amazing ginormous rings! woah--im sure this is a shocker. but for about a year now obnoxious rings have been a fashion statement one is dared to make ;)
the ever so famous house of harlow ring is always adorable, i have yet to purchase( probably never will) and then the gorgeous nOir brooklyn bridge two finger ring<3

the light of day..

WELL EM, looks like your not going out for a few months...

the words miss.pamela, my mother, spoke to me when i arrived home from school today. good thing this is because of my HORRIFYING grades first quarter. i deffinitely have learned my lessson, i can not believe i did so poorly. its disgustingggg! ANYWAY, on a better note- miss.wyss, neighbor and bear friend, got a chance to show the bear mobile to the schools up on campus drive. oh what a fun little car... i mean what other than a 92' tempo would you want to be rolling through dairy barn in ?! i dont think anything competes.
xoxoBL

pre h@lLo0ween.

as tradition most days of halloween, or in this years instance, the day before halloween, everyone in lovely high school dresses up in groups-or alone. Ofcouse this years seniors had the best costumes again, but good thing there was a silent agreement between everyone as juniors, that we were taking a halloween break this year. we had gone over the top last, and will go above and beyond next year. but what has also been realized is the amount of "slutty" attire being shown on halloween has slimed down SO much that the celebration becomes more tradition again than who can show more skin competition. although there were some sights of ass cheeks today, then again when are there not. HOWACTRACTIVE? good thing madame french is still obsessed with boy et moi,not that there is any reason whatsoever to be obsessed. goooosh montizzz! amazing friends xoxo JM&GD WOULD go and see tegan and sara tonight, deffinitely going to be an amazing show. tomorrow night in nyc hammerstein ballroom weezer and matt&kim will be making a fabulous appearance, which i will unfortunately not be attending. oh well all hallows eve !

brUtally terrible at french... apologies for translators

Je vous aime, vous ne pouvez pas le voir, vous ne pouvez pas le penser, mais je fais. écrivant en français est vraiment surréaliste parce que ceci est juste traducteur et les excuses pour écrire blog deux fois ou probablement trois fois ce soir mais honnêtement quand vous avez un jour comme aujourd'hui, vous avez juste trop de mots pour dire que vous ne pouvez pas fermer juste vos yeux pour dire la bonne nuit.

not another cell phone...

as my friends know I'm the one with the worst of luck with cellular phones. i mean honestly, are they really supposed to have malfunctions once a month?! i highly doubt that... well my parents aren't to fond of this phone trend i have either. today, of course, the monthly discussion of "not another phone emily" came up.. currently its such a tie between the new iPhone S by apple and the blackberry bold 9000 in white. I've been a crack-berry addict for about a year, but after having to replace the little bear 6 times, that addiction has come to an end. well, going to the lovely att store tomorrow. they all love me there!-totally kidding. lets see who wins the race of expensess! haahhah it would end up to be the apple just so mr.jhubz can send me videos of those twins having a legitimate poke war in the middle of the library during class. makes my day them crazy kids..